What No One Tells You About Admitting Your Teen to a Psychiatric Ward
I published an earlier version of this piece about 18 months ago. It reached over 150,000 people and generated more than 1,000 reactions. But what I remember are the private messages. Parents telling me they’d never heard someone describe this experience honestly. Parents saying they were in the middle of it right now.
Since then, I’ve built the tool I wish I’d had. The Teen Signal Check helps parents sort what they’re seeing into something clear before things reach the point this story describes. Over 3,500 parents have taken it. It takes 3 minutes.
But this isn’t about the tool. This is about what happened when I didn’t have it.
The Youth Adolescent Psychiatric Unit, fondly known as 7 North, unexpectedly transformed into a haven for our family. Three years had passed since our departure from Aurora, and in this clinical and sterile space, Maddie’s mom and I set aside our differences. Our shared mission was simple: to ensure our daughter left this place healthier and, hopefully, happier.
I didn’t know what I was looking at. And by the time I did, we were already here.
That’s the truth most parents won’t tell you. We see the signs. We notice the withdrawal, the energy shift, the change. But we don’t trust ourselves. We tell ourselves it’s teenage stuff. Normal angst. Growing pains. We were mistaken. Or we didn’t want to acknowledge what we were truly seeing.
While the physical surroundings of 7 North were sterile, the warmth and support emanating from the people within were palpable. This temporary community, grappling with various challenges, guarded the privacy of their stories. The reasons for each admission remained a mystery unless someone chose to share. Despite diverse struggles, a common thread emerged. Everyone sought support and found solace within these walls, promising safety.
What I found on 7 North was what parents need long before crisis hits: community.
Because isolation makes everything worse. When you’re the only one carrying the weight of “when something feels off,” you minimize it. You wait. You hope it passes.
That’s the gap where things escalate.
Maddie didn’t merely adapt to 7 North; she swept through like a force of nature. Her infectious enthusiasm endeared her to staff and fellow patients alike. Maddie possessed a natural inclusivity, committing to positively impact any space she inhabited despite her internal struggles.
Not every moment on 7 North was cheerful. Maddie still grappled with moments of sadness and depression, often concealed from her fellow patients. In the privacy of her room, the vibrant Maddie would sometimes retreat into darkness and introspection.
Despite the challenges, Maddie encountered dedicated and exceptional practitioners at 7 North. One individual who played a pivotal role as a youth counsellor was Kadeem. When Maddie found herself in the depths of her dark abyss, it was Kadeem who could help her climb out. Their bond was unique, marked by exchanges filled with laughter and genuine connection. Kadeem’s qualities, marked by relatability and empathy, had a calming effect that made you instantly feel secure. A feeling Maddie desperately needed.
Someone who had been through struggle and come out the other side. Someone who got Maddie’s world. Who helped her see a path forward and believe in herself again.
That’s what teens need when they’re struggling but not in crisis. Just someone who understands. Someone who’s walked the path and can show them it gets better.
While Nicole, the boys, and I couldn’t be at 7 North every hour, knowing Kadeem was there provided solace. Among the many remarkable individuals on the unit, Kadeem stood out for the hope he instilled in Maddie. Ten days after her arrival, Maddie received the all-clear to go home. A pre-Christmas gift that brought joy and relief to our family.
But here’s what they don’t tell you about discharge: you leave with the same questions you arrived with.
Is she okay now? What do I watch for? How do I know if she’s slipping again?
I went home and “Maddie-proofed” the house. Purged the alcohol and prescription drugs. Repaired her bedroom door. Cleaned her room meticulously. Yet, the reality lingered. If someone wanted to find a way to harm themselves, they likely would.
What I needed wasn’t a safer house. It was confidence in what I was seeing.
As a family, we ventured out to get a Christmas tree, spending an evening decorating it together. This simple act, a cherished tradition, marked a step toward reclaiming our “new normal.”
Christmas and New Year’s unfolded. The kids gradually settled back into their regular routines. School resumed, though Maddie needed more time. Left alone with my thoughts during the weeks the kids were with Nicole, I grappled with the illusion that life was returning to normal. An underlying uneasiness persisted, and my struggles with sleeplessness continued.
We kept trying to involve Maddie, but she seemed unsure. When words failed, I gave her hugs in her room. She said she was okay, but as a parent, I worried and found it hard to relax.
I was watching. But I didn’t know what I was watching for.
Maddie and I continued our movie nights. Stand By Me. Fletch. Stripes. Uncle Buck. Princess Bride. Those became our lifeline. Our safe place where we forgot the world outside.
In those tough times, saying “I love you” became important. Maddie held onto that love.
But deep down, we knew things were different. Life was fragile, and even simple moments felt heavy.
The night before the second attempt is a blur in my memory.
We went to bed like any other evening. There were no triggering events, no alcohol, no turbulent incidents, no expressions of anger or overwhelming sadness. It was the carefree evening that preceded it that raised my biggest concern. I went to bed with my guard down.
In the morning, I woke up the boys and then Maddie. Something felt off as I entered her room. Maddie’s bottle of antidepressants and a bottle of gin were there, even though I had removed most of the pills and alcohol from the house.
I don’t comprehend where the mind goes when deciding to end one’s life, especially when it seems so random and unnecessary.
Despite lacking the means to achieve her goal, the attempt was genuine. She was conscious and alert, though disappointed when I woke her up. Not disappointed that I disturbed her sleep but disappointed that she could be awakened.
This time, there was no need to summon emergency services. We got into my car and drove to the hospital ourselves. We entered the Emergency Department, familiar with the process, knowing that 7 North would soon be our home for the foreseeable future.
Why I Wrote This
I built everything I build now because of what I didn’t have then.
A way to know what I was looking at before it became a crisis. A community of parents who understood what I was carrying. A trusted adult for Maddie who wasn’t me.
Those things exist now. If you need them, they’re here.
But that’s not why I wrote this.
I wrote this because I don’t want you standing in your kid’s bedroom wondering what you’re looking at. I want you to trust what you’re seeing. And I want you to act before you end up on your own version of 7 North.
I noticed. I just didn’t trust what I was seeing. And by the time I did, we were already there.
You don’t have to wait that long.
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If you or someone you know is in crisis, contact your local crisis line, go to your nearest emergency department, or call 911. You are not alone.
